Figuring It Out As I Go…











{December 6, 2007}   What’s New?

I know I don’t post on here often, but look, it does happen sometimes!

I’ve been in MN this week, doing some work and training in our corporate office.  I love it here a lot!  I love the cold, the snow, etc.  I’d stay here in a heartbeat!!  I was hoping to get to visit with Cheeky, but that just isn’t happening.  It’s impressive how busy one remains on a business trip!  Well, maybe next time!

On Friday and Saturday before we left for our business trip, my boss and I took her son and my daughter to both nights of Jingle Ball.  We saw Fall Out Boy, Avril Lavigne, Sean Kingston, Natasha Bedingfield, One Republic, Gym Class Heroes, Plain White T’s, and CuteIs What We Aim For (not in that order).  We all had so much fun, and it was the first concert (and 2nd) for both kids!  Yeah, I know, we’re cool moms 🙂  If you’re my friend on Flickr you can see the pics there, along with some snowy MN pics 🙂

I’ve been dreaming about my Uncle the past couple of nights.  The dreams are always scary…someone trying to hurt me, but then I see my Uncle and I feel calm, but then something happens, I don’t know what, and I’m terrified and yelling for my Aunt.  It’s been the exact same dream both times, and last night I woke myself up yelling for my Aunt 😦  I have no idea what these dreams mean or why I’m having them.  I mean, my first thought would be that I just miss him because this is my first set of holidays without him, but the scary parts make me wonder…who knows.  I just hope I don’t have them tonight!  Or ever again for that matter!

I’m second guessing surgery, which actually happens a lot lately.  I’m worried that it’s going to make it worse, or just not help at all.  I don’t know.  Part of me thinks it’s the best thing I can do for myself, and part of me thinks that it may just be something I have to learn to live with, and going under the knife won’t do anything for it…I’m open to opinions.

Alright, I think that’s it.  I need to get some work done now!



Sounds like a great day huh 😉 It’s really a book I’m reading…

I can’t believe I forgot to post my lessons learned in MN! My cute little Dash…yeah, it’s durable! It flew off the top of Katie’s car at 50mph! It’s fine. In one piece. Scratched. No big deal. I almost cried though! I mean, seriously, this thing isn’t even paid for yet! So yeah, great phone, and VERY durable!

My Aunt Betty and Cheril have been down here all week. I love it. I’ve gotten to spend so much time with them! We had a BBQ tonight for my cousin Nathan…he’s 31. Damn that’s old 😉

I took Frankie to the vet…he was coughing. $270 later, he had an antibiotic, antihistamine, and was updated on his vaccines. My wallet hurts though. Damn expensive ass dog! Andrew brought up a good point though: It’d be hard to explain to the kids why he was dead 😉

I watched Georgia Rule tonight. Great movie!!!!! It even made me cry, which, let’s be honest here, isn’t hard to do lately. Speaking of, I have a brain dump coming…I’m going to password it though. I’ll email ya’ll the password when the time comes, and if I don’t email you, feel free to email me thebrunette1980@yahoo.com.

Oh yeah…I’m stealing the send me your address idea. I realized tonight when I was picking up my bedroom that I have a ton of postcards lying around from the trips this summer. So send me your address (if you trust me) and I’ll send you a random card or post card. It’ll be a fun way for us all to wrap up summer and get through winter, which I know can be very long for some of you! And if you don’t want to email me your addy, that’s fine too. I’m easy peasy tonight. Could be the vicodin I took for my ankle. Whatev.

Oh, my ankle. Yeah, it’s fucked. And by fucked I mean I may have to have a pin put in it. I’ve been doing physical therapy twice a week for a month, still going. I have a brace that they special ordered me that I have to wear 24/7. It’s fun. Only not. Oh, and did I mention it hurts like HELL! Yeah. It does. So there is no running in my future…I can ride a bike though, which I’ve been doing almost every night. I LOVE it 🙂

Ok, that’s all for now. I’m going to go read blogs like a good little girl. Oh, check out the pics in my flickr. Got a cute froggie today 🙂



{September 5, 2007}   “Don’t Cha Know!”

About time for a post, ya?

I was in MN this past weekend, hangin’ with Katie and TMP. Couldn’t have had more fun if I tried, seriously! They were both kick ass hostesses, and Grasshopper, AKA C-Dawg is the coolest kid ever! Seriously!

So lets start with funny things said, shall we:
“We missed you!”
“That monkey is goin’ bananas!!”
“Wow, she could suck a golf ball through that straw!!”
“It’s a good thing you’re not epileptic!”
“Oops, I spilled gizz!”
“Hey CA, how’s your dick? PS, I have tits!”
“Grasshopper not home right now. Please leave a message after tone: TOOOOOONE!”

I’m sure for some of those ya had to be there, but trust me/us, it was funny, and not just because I was drinking!

Let us now move on to things I learned in MN:
There’s a minimum speed of 40 and a maximum speed of 60 on their freeways. And people abide by it!
You don’t have to pay before you pump your gas.
80’s is alive and living in MN people! Seriously!
The Mall of America (MOA) is HUGE! Like, large and IN CHARGE! People will fly from places like Montana to shop for school clothes there!
MN accents rock, and only get funnier when you add alcohol!
Texting each other while still in bed in separate rooms in a 1 bedroom apartment is not only acceptable, but encouraged.
Texting each other while across the table from each other, again, encouraged 😛
There is some SERIOUS no joke road rage in MN. Seriously. Those are some PISSED OFF drivers!

It really was a kick ass trip, and TMP and Katie are 2 kick ass girls! I can’t wait to hang out with them some more! We had a ton of fun together, and giggled like crazy…not to mention, those girls can talk shit with the best of ’em! Not that we would ever sit and talk shit about things like our shitty ass waitress. We’d also never just pick up all of our stuff and move to another table in a restaurant. Oh, and taking random pictures with strangers, nope, not us 😀 You should check out my flickr though, you know, just in case I’m full of shit 😉

I’m going to really put out an effort to be a better blog friend…so bear with me…I know, I’ve been saying that shit for a couple months now…just keep lovin’ me k 😀



{July 31, 2007}   Where The Hell Is She??

I know, I’ve been a horrible blogger! But I have a really good reason:
…….ummmm……..ok, maybe I have a crappy reason:
…….ummmm……..fine, I just suck, ok! But here’s a little update ’cause I really do still love ya’ll!

Running is going great! I’ve finally found my runners high and look forward to running at night (except when I’m really tired or have something more fun to do!!) Ok, so my high could use a little work, but at least I don’t dread it now 😀 Oh, and I love my shoes like no other! Whooda thunk that shoes could make such a big damn difference!!

Sarah and I took last Friday off and went and played. We went to the Winchester Mystery House (so incredible!!!!), indulged in ‘ritas at Chevy’s then went to a Leann Rimes concert. OH.MY.GOD ya’ll, that girl can sing! She put on a great show, and the place we saw her at fucking rocked! Never have I seen such a purty place before!! So pretty, so romantic! Can’t wait to go there again, maybe even with a guy this time 😉 Oh, and we had the yummiest drink there!! An orange creamsicle. Fucking awesome, and ALMOST worth the $9 damn dollars we had to pay for EACH OF THEM!
After the concert we went to a little hole in the wall bar here in town and Sarah convinced me to sing Bobby McGee with her. It was kinda fun, and although we walked off stage by mistake before the song was over, I don’t think we did too bad…although I think I sound better in my car 😛 Now she wants me to sing Desperado with her! Oh Lord, bring on the Bacardi, or Arlene just isn’t going to have the balls for this 😉
As always, pictures are in my flickr (not of the concert though, they were literally searching bags to keep cameras out!!)

The rest of the weekend went pretty well. Visited with my Aunt and cousin Garry…they came down for a few days…always a good time! I love them so much, AND, I get to see them this coming weekend because I’m taking the boy up there 😀 Good times!

My trip to see Katie is only 30 days away! Can you guys believe it!!!! I’m so excited!!!!! We MAY be getting tattoos while I’m there 😉 Don’t be surprised if I end up with a tramp stamp 😉 Hahahaha!!! Honestly, I know the other 2 things I want, but I don’t know where I want them, so I’m curious to see how it all turns out!

Hmmm, what else….
Well, there is that other thing…but I’m not ready to share it yet 😀 Right now it’s my own private happiness and reason to glow 😀

K, I’m going to read blogs now, ’cause I love you guys and I don’t want you to think I died!!



Why didn’t anyone tell me how much running hurts?  Holy guacamole!  I ran 1.5 miles the first night, walking the majority.  Last night I ran a mile, splitting the running and walking about 50/50, but I had to stop because my legs hurt so damn bad!  So tonight I’m just going to walk, nice and easy.  I’m really impressed with how much my legs and feet hurt.  I guess that’s what happens when you go from couch potato to marathon training 😛

I’m trying really hard to get around to blogs, but I’ll be honest, my motivation is nill by the time I get home, and I’ve been crazy busy here at work.  I’m trying though.  Everyone just please be patient with me 😀 

Oh, and if anyone wants to get together and run, walk, or ride a bike (which I still need to buy!) let me know!  I’d love to have a partner!! 

Oh yeah, check out Sarah’s blog and look at what they did to my doggy while we were on vacation, it’s hilarious!!!! 



So I’ve been seriously stressing on seeing my mom.  For those of you that don’t know the situation, I’ll give you the cliff notes version:
My mom has been a drug addict since she was about 17.  She’s always had very limited contact with my kids because of it, and I personally can’t stand her when she’s high, which is always.  But in Feb or Mar she moved to Colorado, and has stayed clean up there, hence the trip to go visit her.   At least, she was clean until a couple of weeks ago.  She’s started using again.  Not good.  I’ve gone back and forth with whether or not I want to go.  Today she called me yelling at me and told me not to come.  While I was at work.
That was the breaking of my dam.  I started bawling.  I called my Aunt to get her opinion on things, and she was pissed.  She called my mom and ripped her a new ass.  Of course my mom hung up on her.  But then Nick, the guy that’s been taking care of my mom since I was about 13, called my Aunt Betty.  He explained that they had gotten in a fight, and of course, she’s high, so she flew off the handle and decided I should be brought into it too.  Yeah, that’s her.
So, after talking to my Aunt some more, and crying the entire afternoon, she said we should still go.  We have our own place and rental car, so we don’t have to see my mom if we don’t want to.  I’m stressed.  I’m tired.  My tummy is upset.  But it will all be ok.  And I have great friends helping me through.  I love you guys so much!
Oh, and I have no internet access in my hotel.  How do you get a hotel suite with a loft and kitchen, but no internet.  Whatever.  We’ll add that to the reasons I’ll be at Starbucks 🙂



{July 11, 2007}   SuperGlue!

Is it National Dumb Driver Day today?  Seriously.  Kristen and I went to Dixon at lunch to go to Super Wally World, and we encountered every idiot around!  It was ridiculous!  And just an FYI: it’s called the “fast lane” for a reason.  If the people behind you are on your ass, you should probably MOVE!

I’m eating a Jolly Rancher stick as I type this, and I keep growling/grunting at things, mostly because I can’t talk while sucking on this thing, and my coworker just compared me to Little Frankenstein!  Nice huh 😀

My boss told me today that Vodka is Atkins approved…and bloody mary’s are healthy!  I really need to start drinking more!  And I love her!  Seriously!

So Sarah and Andrew have been in Reno all week, and I made them leave Gidgie home with me to keep me safe.  The first night, all night long she was up and down, going to the door, giving little half barks, and then looking at me like I should really just do something, like bring mom and dad home.  Then at bedtime I put her in bed with me (shhhh, don’t tell Andrew!) and she was fine for a while, but then decided to get down.  No big deal, she was sleeping next to the bed.  I wake up because she’s decided somewhere around 2am that she actually does want to sleep with me, so she just jumps right in the middle of me!  Good thing I love her so freakin’ much!  Last night she did fine though.  She really is the best dog there is, and I hope someday Frankie can learn from her!

Speaking of Frankie, he’s been so good at not going potty in the house.  I put him outside all the time and he’s going potty out there!  Hopefully soon he’ll catch on to go to the door when he needs to go!

This Jolly Rancher is really good ya’ll!   Apple.  Yum!

So I have my very own artist that’s going to draw my scorpion tattoo for me!  Ok, he’s not really MINE per say, but he is going to draw it for me, and since he really is an artist and wants to open his own gallery (he seriously is THAT good!) I want him to put his signature somewhere in the scorpion.  I mean, after all, it is original SK artwork, and when he’s famous, I’ll be WEARING it!!

Our drowning appt got canceled for today, thanks to it raining last night, and not being exactly warm and fuzzy today.  I mean, it’s warm, but not learn to drown warm!  So we’re going to try again next Wed.

Do you guys realize that the weekend of the 20th this month I have no kids and no plans, and after that I don’t have a kid/plan free weekend until Sept!!  Holy hell!  Oh well, I’m having the time of my life!  I’m hoping to get away for the weekend soon, to the coast, so we’ll see how that pans out 🙂

And speaking of traveling, Kristen was kind enough to remind me that I’m flying out on Friday the 13th!  I mean, I realized it was Friday obviously, and I realized it’s the 13th because it’s my sisters birthday, but I didn’t put the 2 together!  Damn her!  Like I wasn’t worried already!  I mean, I’ve been saying all week that my plane’s going down!  Oh well, I’m taking happy pills with me, and we start to lose altitude I’m downing the bottle so I don’t feel it by the time we hit bottom!

Alright, guess I should work…you know, this whole work thing really cuts into my blogging time! 😉



{July 6, 2007}   From The Voices

So my hair…yeah, it’s falling out in clumps. Right now you can’t tell, and I normally shed a lot anyways, but it’s normally strands at a time and not chunks. I hope it’s just because it’s so freaking hot outside, and not because I’m losing my hair or something ridiculous like that!!
My children have been little SHITS since we got back from San Diego! I had to take away Tyler’s DS because he threw it at the wall! Seriously. I wanted to throw him at the wall! So it’s mine now, until we head to Colorado, because there’s no way we’re going on that plane trip without entertainment! And all he and Ariel have done is fight. Including when I left them with Sarah last night. I ripped them both new asses this morning and told them they’re both going to apologize to her, and they’re either going to start behaving or they’re just going to stay in bed!
Speaking of my bratty man-in-training and CO, my mom sent me a text today asking me how the kids are, and I told her what he did. She wrote me back and said “Well if you wouldn’t make him mad he wouldn’t throw things.” She was serious people! She honestly believes this. I can’t believe I’m going to see this woman in 7 days. She hurts my head.
My blisters are now peeling. I’m actually going to spare you guys the pictures, because it looks like ass. Peeling ass to be exact. And it hurts like hell. Kristen asked me today why I have to learn all of my lessons the hard way. She also accused me of licking windows 😉 Guess we have our answer don’t we!
That’s all for now. Happy Friday ya’ll!!



{July 2, 2007}   Fuddruckers

Well, we made it home in one piece. We had so much fun, and it was just what we all needed! I’ve never taken the kids on a vacation before, and I’ve never gone on any real vacation like this, so it was great! The weather down there couldn’t have been better, and when we got home at 4 this morning, the kids said they wanted to go back there where it’s basically the same temp all the time 🙂 So I’m pretty sure we’re moving 😉

We ended up only doing the Zoo and Legoland. We spent 6 hours at Legoland and didn’t feel like going anywhere else afterwards, then yesterday we went to the Zoo, but Ty and Ariel were both sick by then, and Ty was NOT feeling the whole walking up and down hills just to see some animals. For rides, maybe. For animals, he wasn’t diggin’ it. So we probably only saw a quarter of the stuff there. It’s ok. I wasn’t impressed either. Seemed like every other exhibit was birds, and let’s face it, you can see birds anywhere! I’d go back to Legoland though! It was so much fun 🙂

Obviously there’s a ton we didn’t have time to do. Next time I think I’d like to go with no babies and walk around downtown SD and go through some museums and art galleries. Guess I need to start planning my next vacation 😉

So since everyone was sick (I wasn’t sick yet, just burned) I decided we’d drive home last night, which worked out great! The kids slept the entire drive, except for when I had to wake them to potty, we hit VERY little traffic, and all of the lights were gorgeous! Definitely a drive to make at night in my opinion!! It also allowed me to just zone out, listen to music, and reflect on life and such. All was going well until an old song by Randy Travis came on…it’s called Walked on Water I think. Made me think about my Uncle, which made me tear up. It’s amazing how much I still miss him and how much it still hurts 😦 Thank Bob for my Sirius, because I was able to follow that teary song up with some acoustic Dave, and then of course some Color Me Badd and NKOTB! Yes, you read that right, and I was singing along just like I was 12 again 😀 Have I mentioned lately how much I love my Sirius?? Yeah, 1276 miles driven total, with no commercials and no static. Doesn’t get any better folks!!

So, hands down, great trip. The kiddies and puppy were great, everyone had fun, and aside from my burn that required the doc checkin’ it out today, we’ve all got some great memories! I took a ton of pics, and eventually they’ll all be uploaded. At that point I’ll print some out for the kids so they can make scrapbooks to remember our trip by 🙂

Oh, my ear. It’s doing great. I know you guys were wondering 😉 I love it so much, and I’m so glad I did it!

And now, things I learned on this vacation:

  • I’m stronger than I thought, and going on vacation with my babies alone is just fine, even when people bang on my door at midnight
  • Motorcycle cops in So Cal cut through traffic at 80
  • There are only about 5 cops in all of So Cal, and none of them care that my windows are tinted
  • There are only about 4 Starbucks between here and So Cal
  • I have some of the best friends ever!
  • My car gets 30mpg even when I’m driving like an asshole in So Cal
  • SD is gorgeous, and working at Legoland will be fun
  • There are a TON more Starbucks between So Cal and here…I think they only open them and put the signs out at night
  • Swallowing knives hurts and is just plain silly…you shouldn’t do it
  • Vacation is fun, and should be done more often!



{July 2, 2007}   Pictures

I’m uploading pictures today, in no particular order 🙂   I’ll also blog at some point.  I feel like ass.  We made it home all safe and sound though, got in around 4am.  Thanks for helping to keep me awake and making sure I got home ok guys 🙂  I have great friends!!



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