Figuring It Out As I Go…

{February 6, 2008}   Long Time No Type

Hey everyone!  It’s been awhile!  Just thought I’d say hello 🙂

I miss blogging on here, but it’s just easier not to still.

As for Mr. Waylon, he attacked Frankie (it was TOTALLY Frankie’s fault!!) but we had to get rid of him 😦  I still miss him terribly, and I think if anyone should have gone, it should have been Frankie, but what’s done is done…

I hope everyone is doing well, and I hope to talk to ya’ll soon 🙂

I had my ankle surgery!!


{December 6, 2007}   What’s New?

I know I don’t post on here often, but look, it does happen sometimes!

I’ve been in MN this week, doing some work and training in our corporate office.  I love it here a lot!  I love the cold, the snow, etc.  I’d stay here in a heartbeat!!  I was hoping to get to visit with Cheeky, but that just isn’t happening.  It’s impressive how busy one remains on a business trip!  Well, maybe next time!

On Friday and Saturday before we left for our business trip, my boss and I took her son and my daughter to both nights of Jingle Ball.  We saw Fall Out Boy, Avril Lavigne, Sean Kingston, Natasha Bedingfield, One Republic, Gym Class Heroes, Plain White T’s, and CuteIs What We Aim For (not in that order).  We all had so much fun, and it was the first concert (and 2nd) for both kids!  Yeah, I know, we’re cool moms 🙂  If you’re my friend on Flickr you can see the pics there, along with some snowy MN pics 🙂

I’ve been dreaming about my Uncle the past couple of nights.  The dreams are always scary…someone trying to hurt me, but then I see my Uncle and I feel calm, but then something happens, I don’t know what, and I’m terrified and yelling for my Aunt.  It’s been the exact same dream both times, and last night I woke myself up yelling for my Aunt 😦  I have no idea what these dreams mean or why I’m having them.  I mean, my first thought would be that I just miss him because this is my first set of holidays without him, but the scary parts make me wonder…who knows.  I just hope I don’t have them tonight!  Or ever again for that matter!

I’m second guessing surgery, which actually happens a lot lately.  I’m worried that it’s going to make it worse, or just not help at all.  I don’t know.  Part of me thinks it’s the best thing I can do for myself, and part of me thinks that it may just be something I have to learn to live with, and going under the knife won’t do anything for it…I’m open to opinions.

Alright, I think that’s it.  I need to get some work done now!

{April 16, 2007}   I Am Alive

A couple of people have asked if I’m still alive. I am. I haven’t had time to blog or read blogs, and it’s really quite depressing. I love my blog and I love reading other blogs!
So I’ll give you a list of things I’ve learned recently, and hopefully at some point I’ll find my groove and be able to read and write blogs.

  • Continually beating your head against a brick wall hurts and gets you no where, and just leaves you feeling beat up and exhausted.
  • Allergies suck, and the hurricane winds aren’t helping!
  • I hate the seasons in CA (yes, I knew this, I’m just being reminded)
  • Nerves reattaching in your nose feels like you’re randomly being hit.
  • I suck ass at being home alone and having to listen to the sounds of a quiet house by myself all night.
  • I don’t sleep when I’m home alone. I wake up every half hour wondering if this is the hour someone will break in and kill me. The nightmares don’t help.
  • I think I’ve forgotten how to do most of my job. Makes it not so fun because I feel like an idiot most of the day.
  • I’m a better mom when I’m not working. Didn’t know that ’till I was home for a month. I have so much more patience when I’m not always rushing rushing rushing.
  • My life is not where I thought it would be, nor where I want it to be.
  • Overall, I’m blah and a bit depressed.

So, that’s it in a nutshell. I’ll work on getting around to blogs, hopefully tonight. Happy Monday ya’ll.

{April 3, 2007}   Green

Nope, not green with envy. Nope, not my favorite color. It’s the color of the stuff that’s coming out of my infected nose. Yup, I have an infection. The green is mixed with a nice old blood color. Nice, right? Oh, and sorry for those with a weak stomach. So, I’m off work this week, on more drugs, going back to the doc Thursday. Cross your fingers!

{March 31, 2007}   Day 9, Patch and Movies
Holy shit, look at those eyebrows!!! I need to get them waxed, but I’m so afraid it’ll hurt! And I’d totally pluck them, but up until today, I hadn’t really noticed them. Oh, and I normally balance my hand on my nose when I’m plucking, and barely touching my nose hurts like hell. So, I’ll have amazon brows for a bit longer!

I have a bit more bruising today, which is normal. Doc said I’d be a bit more bruised and swollen for a few days after taking the cast off.
I feel much better today. Almost feeling human. I’m so nervous about going back to work though, because I am still taking pain meds, and I’m still sleeping a lot. I may not be able to work full day the first couple days…definitely don’t want to over do it!!
Oh, and do you know how wonderful it was to sleep laying down last night?? Amazing!!!

Oh, I finally answered all my comments from the past few posts. Sorry I was so slow on that!! I also added the Snap thing the other day. What do you guys think about it? Does it bug you, do you like it? I like to keep my readers happy 🙂

Look at how cute my boy is when he’s sleeping! Any time I move he totally takes over my spot!! And look at all those spots! I think he’s part dalmatian 😉

Alright folks, time for more movies! I’ll let you know what I think, and what the kids think 🙂

{March 30, 2007}   Day 8
*Coupla things I forgot to add. My bruising and swelling will probably get worse for a few days, then get better again. And those nasal splints were so far IN my nose that you couldn’t see them!!*
It hurts…

But I’m trying to smile…

I went to the doctor today. He took out the stitches and nasal splints and took the cast off. It hurt like hell, and I cried. I can breathe now though!!! WooHoo bitches!!!
But yeah, it hurts really bad now. My nose, head and eyes all hurt like hell! I couldn’t wait to get home and take pain meds!
Oh, and I’m sick. I told him I’ve been feeling crappy, and I was running a fever when the nurse took my temperature. He said I have bumps on my throat and tongue and have a virus/cold. I asked what that means, and he said it means I get to come see him again next week to make sure it doesn’t cause an infection in my nose. Great. Seriously people, I’m ready to be well!!!
But yeah, aside from the pain, I can freaking breathe, and that makes me oh so happy! I can even sleep laying down again! Speaking of, I think I’ll take a nap now!

Well, we’re at Day 7. I’m not feeling very well. I’m still running a fever. The kids came home today, and I had to run Ariel to ortho, and I just about passed out. Everyone at the office kept saying how pale I was. I’m glad I’m going to the doctor tomorrow…I don’t like the way I’m feeling. My nose hurts today, my eyes burn, my head hurts…not good. I did wash my hair finally though! I am so happy to have the kids home though! They were both so happy to see me, especially Ariel 🙂 And they thought the sunroof was the coolest! They’re my sweet love bugs and I missed them so much, so I’m a very happy girl!!
So, here’s what Patch and I have been doing since my surgery 🙂 He’s my love bug!
Speaking of dogs, I’ve been thinking about getting another one. John said if I want another one it has to be a small one, which is fine. I’ve been looking at Shih Tzu’s. They’re cute and supposed to be good family dogs. I’m thinking if I do get one, I’ll get an adult from a rescue that needs a good/new home. We’ll see.

So this is what happened earlier. I moved the carton of eggs in the fridge, let the door shut, and heard it hit something. I turned around to see the egg carton partially hanging out and egg dripping down. Great. So I open the door a bit to survey the damage, and let go of it again to grab a towel. Another crunch. 2 eggs down. Damn! Oh well. This is why you don’t play in the fridge high!!

So, on to the movie reviews! Tonight we’re reviewing My Super Ex-Girlfriend, Blood Diamond, and Ant Bully (yup, kids are home!)

My Super Ex-Girlfriend was ok. It had funny spots, and it had a good ending, just didn’t jump out and grab me. I’d say if you’re bored and it happens to be on, watch it. But don’t go out of your way to see it.

Blood Diamond was amazing! I’ve been watching so many movies about Africa lately, and it really intrigues me. I’d like to study it and learn more! But yeah, the movie was great, and was really touching in some places. The one man in the movie was a little screamy for my taste, but I’d say that was my only complaint. I definitely recommend this movie! It is a bit gory though, just an FYI.

The kids loved Ant Bully. I was dozing, so I can’t tell you anything about it, not that I would, but they kept waking me up laughing 🙂 I think tomorrow when they get home we’re going to watch Open Season. I’ve been really wanting to see it, so let’s hope I can stay awake 🙂

So there you have it folks. The good, the bad, and the ugly!

{March 29, 2007}   Three Word Wednesday

Welcome to 3WW, brought to us by Bone.
Today’s words are Easily, Type and Shattered.

I thought I would easily bounce back from my surgery. When my doctor told me he was taking me off work for a week and a half, I figured I’d be fine by Tuesday or Wednesday and just enjoy my free days off. HA. Boy was I wrong! I get all pale and shaky if I’m up for too long, I still can’t breathe or taste, and I’m still sleeping sitting up. I go back to the doc today, so we’ll see what he says. He’s not the type to pull punches or pussy foot, so I trust what he tells me. If he says I can’t go back to work on Monday though, I’ll be shattered! Staying home and still feeling icky is getting old! I’m ready to get on with my life, and enjoy my sunroof 🙂

There you have it! So, did you play?

Watched both last night 🙂
So, The Lake House. This was a pretty good story, and as long as you didn’t let yourself dwell on the logistics, and took the movie at face value, it was really good. I enjoyed it and would recommend it 🙂
Little Miss Sunshine was good too. Kinda like a modern day Griswalds, in more ways than one 😉 Some good moments, and lots of comedy! I recommend this one too 🙂

I know, these movie reviews are totally short. I’m not feeling oh so great today. Kinda light headed. I haven’t taken any pain meds today, just Aleve, as my babies are coming home tomorrow and I want it all out of my system. I’m hurting though, which may be part of the light headedness, so I think I’m going to take half a pain pill. I’m ready to be well!
I’ll take a pic later. I think I’m going to wash my hair, so I’ll take a pic then, when I’m looking more human.
And now I understand why my doc took me off work so long. Yuck!!

{March 27, 2007}   Sad

I miss my babies. I haven’t seen Ariel since LAST Friday. Not two days ago, but the Friday before. We do every other week, so she should have come home this last Friday, but since I can’t drive her back and forth to school, she can’t come home yet. I was going to keep her longer until a bit closer to my surgery, but since I was fighting that cold so I could have the surgery, I went ahead and let her go to her dad’s as scheduled. And then Mr. Tyler…he’s normally only gone for the weekend, and he’s been gone since Wednesday night 😦 I miss them both! They should be home Wednesday night, providing I’m doing well enough to be off pain meds so I can take them back and forth to school (school is about 15 min away because they don’t go to school here in town). Then Ariel will go back to her dads house again on Friday, because technically this is my week, and we want to get things back on schedule as quickly a possible!
I have been talking to Ariel on the phone lots. She called me Wednesday to wish me luck with my surgery, Thursday to make sure I was ok, Saturday to tell me they won their last basket ball game 41-14….but I haven’t talked to her since, so I just left her a voice mail at her dads house. Hopefully she’ll call me before bed. I haven’t gotten to talk to Ty. He’s been busy with his dad, and it’s pointless to have him call me if he’s doing something, because he’s 5 and basically will keep doing whatever he’s doing and ignore whoever is on the phone 🙂 Booger boy! Or maybe it’s just ’cause he’s a man in training, and already learning to hate the phone 😉
Alright, enough whining about missing my babies. Time to nap 🙂

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