Figuring It Out As I Go…

Why didn’t anyone tell me how much running hurts?  Holy guacamole!  I ran 1.5 miles the first night, walking the majority.  Last night I ran a mile, splitting the running and walking about 50/50, but I had to stop because my legs hurt so damn bad!  So tonight I’m just going to walk, nice and easy.  I’m really impressed with how much my legs and feet hurt.  I guess that’s what happens when you go from couch potato to marathon training 😛

I’m trying really hard to get around to blogs, but I’ll be honest, my motivation is nill by the time I get home, and I’ve been crazy busy here at work.  I’m trying though.  Everyone just please be patient with me 😀 

Oh, and if anyone wants to get together and run, walk, or ride a bike (which I still need to buy!) let me know!  I’d love to have a partner!! 

Oh yeah, check out Sarah’s blog and look at what they did to my doggy while we were on vacation, it’s hilarious!!!! 


{July 17, 2007}   Good Intentions

I had great intentions of posting a nice long vacation recap tonight, but I just don’t have it in me. So you get a quick recap and an update of sorts.

First off, I had the best time with my mom this weekend. Honestly, better than any other time in my whole life. Which hurts a little, because that means it’s going to hurt that much more if she starts using again. Just thinking about it puts a knot in my stomach. And the odds aren’t in her favor, because I guess they’re going to be moving back down here. Not good. But I’m going to hold onto this weekend. She was clean, she was happy, and we all enjoyed ourselves immensely! And all of the pictures are officially uploaded, with the rest of the 4th of July somewhere in the middle because I was bored one night while the kids were swimming 🙂

I started training tonight for my marathon. Did 1.5 miles. I walked more than ran, but I figure you have to start somewhere, right? I have faith in myself. I can do this! And when I doubt myself, I’ll text you guys for support 😀 Besides, we all know, I always almost always get what I want, as long as I put my mind to it!

Speaking of almost always getting what I want, sometimes it doesn’t matter how much you want something, because it’s not in your control. And sometimes things aren’t what they seem. Life, I know. But I’m still sad and hurt.

Oh, and I promise to get around to everyone soon!!

Alright, I’m frustrated and I’m going to bed.

{July 13, 2007}   Durango At Night

Well, so far so good.  We had another puddle jumper from Salt Lake to Durango, and we landed during a thunderstorm.  It wasn’t horrible until we were closer to the ground, but I did get off the plane pretty nauseous.  Very different from my flights to San Diego and Oregon, where I was on real planes that hold more than 4 people!  I hope the flights home are better!  And did you know you can smoke inside the Salt Lake Airport?  They have rooms for it!  AND, they charge for their WiFi.  Jerks!

The Durango airport is the size of some large houses.  Literally.  It was hilarious.  And trains are huge up here, so the baggage claim conveyor thingie sounded like a train.  It was cute for the first few minutes, then it got kinda irritating.  I feel bad for the people that work there and have to listen to that all day, although they’ve probably drown it out at this point 🙂 

So far Colorado is absolutely gorgeous!  We haven’t seen a whole lot yet, but what I’ve seen I love!  This is a huge tourist town, so there’s a ton to do here and a TON of people.  Nick (the guy my mom’s “been” with since I was 13, has a gray wolf.  Pure bred.  We walked through downtown and had to stop for about 206 pictures and to talk to people about him.  I’ve never seen people so interested in something!!  It’s like walking around with a movie star!

My mom so far is fine.  She actually doesn’t seem high or like she’s coming down, so I’m not quite sure what to think.  I’ll just be glad that it’s so far so good though.

I’m driving a brand new Hyundai Entourage, and oohlala, I like it!  Who’da ever thunk I’d be lovin’ a minivan!!  Rest assured, I will not be getting rid of my Sasha anytime soon, and especially NOT for a minivan.  For now though, I’m diggin’ the new carness of a car that has 3,000 miles rather than my 40,000.  Because, you know, there’s a difference 😉

The kids are swimming right now.  There’s an indoor pool and spa here.  Tyler’s only tried to drown once, which is great 😉  I have no internet access in my room, it’s only in the main room of the hotel, but it works out well for all of us that it works here in the pool area too.  That means the kids get to swim longer because  we don’t have to go sit in there for me to write this 🙂

Oh, and our room is gorgeous!  2 stories, wood burning fireplace, little kitchen.  I love it so much!  I’ll get some pics uploaded to my computer tonight and flickr tomorrow sometime.  I think tomorrow we’re going to go horseback riding.  Should be fun!  

Alright, my batteries dying.  Peace out ya’ll! 

{July 13, 2007}   Sac International

So we’re sitting here at the airport, facing the planes taking off. The kids are both playing their DS’s (yup, Tyler got his back as of about 10 min ago!) and I’m chatting with who else, but Kristen 🙂 Just like being at work. I’m chatting and staring off into space 😛  Now, if only I had some tomatoes peaches….

I feel a bit better about the trip this morning, although my head is POUNDING! All the Advil in the world isn’t going to help this one!! Oh well. Sitting here is actually kind soothing. I like watching planes take off and land. I think that makes me slow or retarded or something. We’ll just say it’s part of my charm 😀

I’m not sure how the trip will go. I’m sure we’ll see my mom a bit, but I’m thinking it’s going to be a very small amount. She’s always fine around the kids, and honestly, I don’t think they’ve ever seen her clean. Sad. But we’ll have plenty to do, and they won’t even realize we’re not around her! I’ve heard Durango is gorgeous, so I’m really excited, both for the sightseeing part, and the pictures I’m going to take part 🙂 Let’s see how long it takes me to upload these ones, ’cause I STILL have some from LegoLand I want to upload 😉 I suck!

I think I’m going to run away from home next weekend…to recover from this one. If I ever sat still it’d be a miracle 😀 One day I will…when I die. I’ll have run out of things to do by then 😉

Peace out ya’ll!

So I’ve been seriously stressing on seeing my mom.  For those of you that don’t know the situation, I’ll give you the cliff notes version:
My mom has been a drug addict since she was about 17.  She’s always had very limited contact with my kids because of it, and I personally can’t stand her when she’s high, which is always.  But in Feb or Mar she moved to Colorado, and has stayed clean up there, hence the trip to go visit her.   At least, she was clean until a couple of weeks ago.  She’s started using again.  Not good.  I’ve gone back and forth with whether or not I want to go.  Today she called me yelling at me and told me not to come.  While I was at work.
That was the breaking of my dam.  I started bawling.  I called my Aunt to get her opinion on things, and she was pissed.  She called my mom and ripped her a new ass.  Of course my mom hung up on her.  But then Nick, the guy that’s been taking care of my mom since I was about 13, called my Aunt Betty.  He explained that they had gotten in a fight, and of course, she’s high, so she flew off the handle and decided I should be brought into it too.  Yeah, that’s her.
So, after talking to my Aunt some more, and crying the entire afternoon, she said we should still go.  We have our own place and rental car, so we don’t have to see my mom if we don’t want to.  I’m stressed.  I’m tired.  My tummy is upset.  But it will all be ok.  And I have great friends helping me through.  I love you guys so much!
Oh, and I have no internet access in my hotel.  How do you get a hotel suite with a loft and kitchen, but no internet.  Whatever.  We’ll add that to the reasons I’ll be at Starbucks 🙂

{July 11, 2007}   SuperGlue!

Is it National Dumb Driver Day today?  Seriously.  Kristen and I went to Dixon at lunch to go to Super Wally World, and we encountered every idiot around!  It was ridiculous!  And just an FYI: it’s called the “fast lane” for a reason.  If the people behind you are on your ass, you should probably MOVE!

I’m eating a Jolly Rancher stick as I type this, and I keep growling/grunting at things, mostly because I can’t talk while sucking on this thing, and my coworker just compared me to Little Frankenstein!  Nice huh 😀

My boss told me today that Vodka is Atkins approved…and bloody mary’s are healthy!  I really need to start drinking more!  And I love her!  Seriously!

So Sarah and Andrew have been in Reno all week, and I made them leave Gidgie home with me to keep me safe.  The first night, all night long she was up and down, going to the door, giving little half barks, and then looking at me like I should really just do something, like bring mom and dad home.  Then at bedtime I put her in bed with me (shhhh, don’t tell Andrew!) and she was fine for a while, but then decided to get down.  No big deal, she was sleeping next to the bed.  I wake up because she’s decided somewhere around 2am that she actually does want to sleep with me, so she just jumps right in the middle of me!  Good thing I love her so freakin’ much!  Last night she did fine though.  She really is the best dog there is, and I hope someday Frankie can learn from her!

Speaking of Frankie, he’s been so good at not going potty in the house.  I put him outside all the time and he’s going potty out there!  Hopefully soon he’ll catch on to go to the door when he needs to go!

This Jolly Rancher is really good ya’ll!   Apple.  Yum!

So I have my very own artist that’s going to draw my scorpion tattoo for me!  Ok, he’s not really MINE per say, but he is going to draw it for me, and since he really is an artist and wants to open his own gallery (he seriously is THAT good!) I want him to put his signature somewhere in the scorpion.  I mean, after all, it is original SK artwork, and when he’s famous, I’ll be WEARING it!!

Our drowning appt got canceled for today, thanks to it raining last night, and not being exactly warm and fuzzy today.  I mean, it’s warm, but not learn to drown warm!  So we’re going to try again next Wed.

Do you guys realize that the weekend of the 20th this month I have no kids and no plans, and after that I don’t have a kid/plan free weekend until Sept!!  Holy hell!  Oh well, I’m having the time of my life!  I’m hoping to get away for the weekend soon, to the coast, so we’ll see how that pans out 🙂

And speaking of traveling, Kristen was kind enough to remind me that I’m flying out on Friday the 13th!  I mean, I realized it was Friday obviously, and I realized it’s the 13th because it’s my sisters birthday, but I didn’t put the 2 together!  Damn her!  Like I wasn’t worried already!  I mean, I’ve been saying all week that my plane’s going down!  Oh well, I’m taking happy pills with me, and we start to lose altitude I’m downing the bottle so I don’t feel it by the time we hit bottom!

Alright, guess I should work…you know, this whole work thing really cuts into my blogging time! 😉

{July 6, 2007}   From The Voices

So my hair…yeah, it’s falling out in clumps. Right now you can’t tell, and I normally shed a lot anyways, but it’s normally strands at a time and not chunks. I hope it’s just because it’s so freaking hot outside, and not because I’m losing my hair or something ridiculous like that!!
My children have been little SHITS since we got back from San Diego! I had to take away Tyler’s DS because he threw it at the wall! Seriously. I wanted to throw him at the wall! So it’s mine now, until we head to Colorado, because there’s no way we’re going on that plane trip without entertainment! And all he and Ariel have done is fight. Including when I left them with Sarah last night. I ripped them both new asses this morning and told them they’re both going to apologize to her, and they’re either going to start behaving or they’re just going to stay in bed!
Speaking of my bratty man-in-training and CO, my mom sent me a text today asking me how the kids are, and I told her what he did. She wrote me back and said “Well if you wouldn’t make him mad he wouldn’t throw things.” She was serious people! She honestly believes this. I can’t believe I’m going to see this woman in 7 days. She hurts my head.
My blisters are now peeling. I’m actually going to spare you guys the pictures, because it looks like ass. Peeling ass to be exact. And it hurts like hell. Kristen asked me today why I have to learn all of my lessons the hard way. She also accused me of licking windows 😉 Guess we have our answer don’t we!
That’s all for now. Happy Friday ya’ll!!

{May 12, 2007}   Countdown To Colorado!!

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