Figuring It Out As I Go…

{December 6, 2007}   What’s New?

I know I don’t post on here often, but look, it does happen sometimes!

I’ve been in MN this week, doing some work and training in our corporate office.  I love it here a lot!  I love the cold, the snow, etc.  I’d stay here in a heartbeat!!  I was hoping to get to visit with Cheeky, but that just isn’t happening.  It’s impressive how busy one remains on a business trip!  Well, maybe next time!

On Friday and Saturday before we left for our business trip, my boss and I took her son and my daughter to both nights of Jingle Ball.  We saw Fall Out Boy, Avril Lavigne, Sean Kingston, Natasha Bedingfield, One Republic, Gym Class Heroes, Plain White T’s, and CuteIs What We Aim For (not in that order).  We all had so much fun, and it was the first concert (and 2nd) for both kids!  Yeah, I know, we’re cool moms 🙂  If you’re my friend on Flickr you can see the pics there, along with some snowy MN pics 🙂

I’ve been dreaming about my Uncle the past couple of nights.  The dreams are always scary…someone trying to hurt me, but then I see my Uncle and I feel calm, but then something happens, I don’t know what, and I’m terrified and yelling for my Aunt.  It’s been the exact same dream both times, and last night I woke myself up yelling for my Aunt 😦  I have no idea what these dreams mean or why I’m having them.  I mean, my first thought would be that I just miss him because this is my first set of holidays without him, but the scary parts make me wonder…who knows.  I just hope I don’t have them tonight!  Or ever again for that matter!

I’m second guessing surgery, which actually happens a lot lately.  I’m worried that it’s going to make it worse, or just not help at all.  I don’t know.  Part of me thinks it’s the best thing I can do for myself, and part of me thinks that it may just be something I have to learn to live with, and going under the knife won’t do anything for it…I’m open to opinions.

Alright, I think that’s it.  I need to get some work done now!


{November 7, 2007}   All Good!

So my baby girl made the honor roll!!  I’m so happy and proud of her!

In other news, I’m going to MN for work the first week of Dec, so let me know if anyone wants to get together!!

The big move is Sat….YAY!!!!

{October 2, 2007}   Protected: My New Hole

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{September 20, 2007}   Silent Tears

I’ve been getting a lot of these the past couple of days from the girl.  Her eyes fill with tears when I turn her expander, then they start falling.  There is no drama involved, just her silent tears.  It breaks my heart that I’m causing her physical pain, even though I know it’s for her own good.  So I hug her, I comfort her, I let her eat ANYTHING that she can because everything hurts, and I call her at school to remind her to take her Motrin to stay ahead of the pain she’s currently feeling in her mouth, head and face…We’re scheduled for 28 turns.  We’ve got 6 under our belt.  Yes, we are counting down!

In other random news, my mom has been calling me all night.  I’m not answering.  I don’t remember if I blogged about this, but before I left for MN, she started using again.  At my house.  While babysitting my daughter after her oral surgery.  I have nothing to say to her.  How DARE she put my child in harms way when I’ve entrusted her to care for her AFTER HER ORAL SURGERY!!!!!!!!  She’s my baby dammit, and this is my home, and how DARE she disrespect it!  But it makes my heart beat a little bit faster every time her number pops up on my phone.  And it makes my mind start racing every time she hangs up without leaving a voice mail.  Damn her!

Work is going really well.  I’ll be making my trip to our corporate office in MN somewhere around the first week of November.  I’m excited and scared, and so happy that my boss is trusting me being her second on this project!  I really do love my job, and have learned recently that there’s nothing outside of my job that could make me leave it!

Speaking of love, I haven’t said recently how much I love my friends.  I have a great group of friends, both on here and in real life, and I honestly don’t know what I’d do without you guys!

I have other stuff on my mind tonight, but my mind is a bit jumbled…I’ve been keeping a running outline in draft form for my passworded post, so watch for it.  Again, I’ll email everyone the password.

Have a great weekend ya’ll!

{September 18, 2007}   The Girl…

Got her braces and palate expander in today.  She did better than I thought, and is handling it better than I thought.  She’s hard to understand right now, and can’t really chew, but she’s drinking a milk shake and playing on my laptop here at work, so she’s in good spirits 🙂  She has a Yahoo email address, and we use Yahoo here at work, so I signed her into messenger so she can talk to Kristen and my boss and I.  It’s making her very happy, and my boss and Kristen both just love her, so it’s fun for everyone.  Nice way to break up the monotony of a Tuesday 🙂

So, without further ado, the pictures!

The Braces


The palate expander that will slowly break the roof of her mouth (AKA the RPE)


And the spikes she’s had for almost 2 years now…mouth full of metal?  Nah 😉

And as a bonus, this was my drive to work yesterday morning:

I’ll write more later…I still have the long juicy post I promised ya’ll. Oh, and I’ve decided to just password posts when I need to, because there’s no way in HELL I’m going back to Blogger!!!!

So my baby girl got her 4 teeth pulled today.  It was horrifying…really.

So we get there, and I realize I left the check at home!  So we have to drive back home to get it, which works out fine because I guess the oral surgeon is running a little behind.  Ariel is pretty calm, so of course I’m pretending to be, while feeling like I’m going to puke!

When we got back and they took her back, she got a little nervous and started asking a bunch of questions, which was fine, she was still handling everything like a champ!  I got more worried with every electrode they attached, still keeping my calm.  Then they asked a question I never thought I’d hear:
“Do you want to stay in here during the procedure?”
I immediately said a big hell no, I’m not interested in watching what you’re about to do, but before I’d even finished, Ariel looked at me and said YES!  So there it was.  I was stuck.  Fine.

So they get her all in position, explain everything that’s going to happen, and all is well.  And then they put the gas mask over her face, and all hell broke loose!  She started panicking, crying, gasping, saying she couldn’t breathe.  Of course I start crying because watching your baby do that pretty much just breaks your heart!  But finally she was out, and it was kinda ok again.
Until they laid the chair back farther, taped her eyes closed, and started yanking teeth out of her head!  I’m not going to lie, that made me a little woozy!  Thank Bob for all of my friends messaging me, or I may have lost it (sooner!)
Then we get to the last tooth.  He attaches his pliers from hell, AND SHE MOVES!!!!  WTF??!!!!!! She didn’t make any noises though, and they all immediately assured me, as they were turning up the gas, that she wasn’t awake, and some movement is always normal.  Ok fine.  But then it happens AGAIN!  And we do the gas cycle again.  At this point I think I might throw up.  And then, when she moved the 3rd time, I almost passed out and the nurse made me leave the room for fear I was going to pass out on their floor!
I went out to the waiting room, put my head between my legs, and within a few minutes, they said I could go back because they were waking her up.
She woke up ok, although there were a lot of tears and confusion, which continued all the way home 😦  My poor baby girl!

She’s ok now though.  Resting on the couch, watching TV off and on.  It’s only noon but it’s been a long ass day for us both I think!!   Anyways, thank you to everyone for all of your well wishes and keeping me occupied.  You guys rock!  And for your hard work, I give you pictures!

Ariel’s teeth!





Sleeping it off… 


So yeah, I’ve been pulled over twice in a week for my windows…I think I’m going to finally pull the tint off. It was fun while it lasted, but I don’t have the time or money for all these fix it tickets!

I hated my Blast phone, so I traded it in for the Tmobile Dash. So far, I love it! And today is my second day with it, so I think we’ll be ok this time! It’s a “smart phone” and I can synch it with my Outlook, listen to music on it, text easily with the FULL Qwerty board, etc. It’s a great phone so far!!

I took Ariel to her consultation to have 4 teeth pulled with the oral surgeon yesterday. You see, her teeth are so close together that they’re not falling out, so the adult teeth are below the surface and starting to turn because there’s no where for them to go. Not good. So on the 23rd they’re puttin’ her out and yankin’ the teeth! She’s not worried at all. I, on the other hand, am freaking the fuck out that they’re putting my baby to sleep! I know I have no reason to, but she’s my baby dammit!! Oh, and did I mention, AFTER insurance, it’s going to cost $565!!!! Yeah, my dental insurance doesn’t want to pay to put a 9 YEAR OLD to sleep to pull 4 TEETH! Assholes. The oral surgeons biller is going to try to get it covered, which means her dad and I will get reimbursed, but in the mean time, we have to pay the full $565. I thank Bob that he and his wife are so willing to cover half (like they’re supposed to) and that we don’t have to fight about stuff like this!

I went to my doc yesterday for my ankle, because I rolled it again, and got some wonderful news:

  • I can’t run anymore, for at least 6 months, but maybe not ever.
  • The only cardio I can do is ride a bike or swim…we all know I don’t know how to swim so I guess I need to buy a bike, because….
  • I also have to lose weight…20-30lbs to be exact. He said having extra weight on my ankle is not helping it, and right now, it needs all the help it can get!
  • I’m also back in physical therapy, and he wants me on crutches (um, no thank you!)

So physical therapy starts back up next week. Weight loss starts tomorrow, and I guess I need to count some pennies to fund a bike after paying for her freaking teeth to get yanked!

Carlos is THIS Friday! I can’t wait!

Official trip to MN countdown: 16 days baby, 16 days! Oh, did I mention I’m a jackass? Yeah, I didn’t realize the first Monday in Sept is a holiday. I totally could have stayed another day! Oh well. I can’t change my tickets now, it’ll cost around $100. It just means I’ll have a day of rest before coming back to work, which I’m sure I’ll need 😛

Oh, and today’s the kids’ first day back to school. 1st and 4th grades! Holy shit when did they grow up????? Ariel has blue hair again too. It’s not nearly as cute as it was last time, but if you’re so inclined, you know where to find the pictures! I’ll be uploading more tonight when I get home 🙂

Alright, I think that’s it. Gotta work now!

{July 13, 2007}   Durango At Night

Well, so far so good.  We had another puddle jumper from Salt Lake to Durango, and we landed during a thunderstorm.  It wasn’t horrible until we were closer to the ground, but I did get off the plane pretty nauseous.  Very different from my flights to San Diego and Oregon, where I was on real planes that hold more than 4 people!  I hope the flights home are better!  And did you know you can smoke inside the Salt Lake Airport?  They have rooms for it!  AND, they charge for their WiFi.  Jerks!

The Durango airport is the size of some large houses.  Literally.  It was hilarious.  And trains are huge up here, so the baggage claim conveyor thingie sounded like a train.  It was cute for the first few minutes, then it got kinda irritating.  I feel bad for the people that work there and have to listen to that all day, although they’ve probably drown it out at this point 🙂 

So far Colorado is absolutely gorgeous!  We haven’t seen a whole lot yet, but what I’ve seen I love!  This is a huge tourist town, so there’s a ton to do here and a TON of people.  Nick (the guy my mom’s “been” with since I was 13, has a gray wolf.  Pure bred.  We walked through downtown and had to stop for about 206 pictures and to talk to people about him.  I’ve never seen people so interested in something!!  It’s like walking around with a movie star!

My mom so far is fine.  She actually doesn’t seem high or like she’s coming down, so I’m not quite sure what to think.  I’ll just be glad that it’s so far so good though.

I’m driving a brand new Hyundai Entourage, and oohlala, I like it!  Who’da ever thunk I’d be lovin’ a minivan!!  Rest assured, I will not be getting rid of my Sasha anytime soon, and especially NOT for a minivan.  For now though, I’m diggin’ the new carness of a car that has 3,000 miles rather than my 40,000.  Because, you know, there’s a difference 😉

The kids are swimming right now.  There’s an indoor pool and spa here.  Tyler’s only tried to drown once, which is great 😉  I have no internet access in my room, it’s only in the main room of the hotel, but it works out well for all of us that it works here in the pool area too.  That means the kids get to swim longer because  we don’t have to go sit in there for me to write this 🙂

Oh, and our room is gorgeous!  2 stories, wood burning fireplace, little kitchen.  I love it so much!  I’ll get some pics uploaded to my computer tonight and flickr tomorrow sometime.  I think tomorrow we’re going to go horseback riding.  Should be fun!  

Alright, my batteries dying.  Peace out ya’ll! 

{July 6, 2007}   From The Voices

So my hair…yeah, it’s falling out in clumps. Right now you can’t tell, and I normally shed a lot anyways, but it’s normally strands at a time and not chunks. I hope it’s just because it’s so freaking hot outside, and not because I’m losing my hair or something ridiculous like that!!
My children have been little SHITS since we got back from San Diego! I had to take away Tyler’s DS because he threw it at the wall! Seriously. I wanted to throw him at the wall! So it’s mine now, until we head to Colorado, because there’s no way we’re going on that plane trip without entertainment! And all he and Ariel have done is fight. Including when I left them with Sarah last night. I ripped them both new asses this morning and told them they’re both going to apologize to her, and they’re either going to start behaving or they’re just going to stay in bed!
Speaking of my bratty man-in-training and CO, my mom sent me a text today asking me how the kids are, and I told her what he did. She wrote me back and said “Well if you wouldn’t make him mad he wouldn’t throw things.” She was serious people! She honestly believes this. I can’t believe I’m going to see this woman in 7 days. She hurts my head.
My blisters are now peeling. I’m actually going to spare you guys the pictures, because it looks like ass. Peeling ass to be exact. And it hurts like hell. Kristen asked me today why I have to learn all of my lessons the hard way. She also accused me of licking windows 😉 Guess we have our answer don’t we!
That’s all for now. Happy Friday ya’ll!!

{July 5, 2007}   4th and Amy!!

Ok, quickly, because it’s late, and I have to be up at 5:30, but our 4th was great, and I’ll upload those pics tomorrow hopefully, along with the rest from the weekend.

We got to hang out with Amy, and it rocked!  She’s hilarious, and we never had a dull or quiet moment!  Can’t wait to hang out with her again!!!

Here are some pics from the evening of us being goofy and happy 🙂

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