I hope you know that I haven’t abandoned you. I realize that you’re probably keeping an eye on things, so you probably know all about my surgery, but I feel bad that I haven’t been out to see you. If I thought I could make it out there with my walker, or even wheelchair, I would have been out there already, but I really don’t think I’d make it through the rough terrain out there. I mean, I realize that it’s not the amazon or anything, but we’re talking about the girl that got herself into this mess in the first place, the same girl that fell on her crutches a few days after surgery. I feel like we shouldn’t push my limits!
I’ve found that when I don’t come see you, I miss you even more…I guess I really do need our weekly talks! More than anything though, it breaks my heart when I think about you out there all alone. Yes, I know, technically you’re surrounded by people, and knowing you, you’ve already made more friends than I can count, but it’s not the same, and in my mind, you’re alone without your family.
I guess what started this whole mess was I heard your song. You know, that one I told you about by the Dixie Chicks. Of course, I started crying, but I listened to the whole song this time, something I haven’t been able to do since you died.
I hope you know how much I love you and miss you…sometimes it seems like yesterday still that I got the call, and sometimes it seems like it was a lifetime ago. Those are the times I find myself grasping at my memories, afraid I’ll forget something about you, the way you smelled, your voice, your laugh; those are things I never want to forget about you, things I want to always hold on to!
Supposedly I’ll have this cast off in 3 weeks, then I’ll come see you. 6 weeks is the longest I’ve ever gone without seeing you! I’ll try not to let it happen again!

I love you Uncle Bill.

Hey everyone!  It’s been awhile!  Just thought I’d say hello

I’m still blogging on Myspace.  If you have Myspace and you’d like to add me, go here.

I miss blogging on here, but it’s just easier not to still.

As for Mr. Waylon, he attacked Frankie (it was TOTALLY Frankie’s fault!!) but we had to get rid of him :-(  I still miss him terribly, and I think if anyone should have gone, it should have been Frankie, but what’s done is done…

I hope everyone is doing well, and I hope to talk to ya’ll soon

PS
I had my ankle surgery!!

We got a new doggy tonight.  His name is Waylon.  He’s a 5 year old Chocolate Lab/German Wirehaired mix.  I already love him so much!!  He’s so sweet, he’s trained, and he totally tolerates Frankie, which is huge!!  He’s greeted all of us with a wagging tail, including the kids (HUGE!!) and when someone knocked on the door, he had a nice deep bark that makes me feel very safe :-)  Waylon’s owner just died, so he was in need of a good home…we’re all super happy to have him here!!

Sorry about the crappy camera phone pics I have of him…I’ll take better ones this weekend, and maybe even a video of him and Frankie playing
In other news, I’m going back to MN for work the first week of Jan.  Should be fun again, although we’re going strictly for grunt work this time with the new software we’re switching to.  Either way.  Business trips are fun
Everything else is going ok.  We’re all set for Christmas, just have to wrap everything the night before.  Can’t wait to see the kids’ faces when they open their stuff!  I think they’re going to be really happy
Oh, and if you haven’t read my bulletin on Myspace, I’m in need of addresses please

I know I don’t post on here often, but look, it does happen sometimes!

I’ve been in MN this week, doing some work and training in our corporate office.  I love it here a lot!  I love the cold, the snow, etc.  I’d stay here in a heartbeat!!  I was hoping to get to visit with Cheeky, but that just isn’t happening.  It’s impressive how busy one remains on a business trip!  Well, maybe next time!

On Friday and Saturday before we left for our business trip, my boss and I took her son and my daughter to both nights of Jingle Ball.  We saw Fall Out Boy, Avril Lavigne, Sean Kingston, Natasha Bedingfield, One Republic, Gym Class Heroes, Plain White T’s, and CuteIs What We Aim For (not in that order).  We all had so much fun, and it was the first concert (and 2nd) for both kids!  Yeah, I know, we’re cool moms :-)  If you’re my friend on Flickr you can see the pics there, along with some snowy MN pics

I’ve been dreaming about my Uncle the past couple of nights.  The dreams are always scary…someone trying to hurt me, but then I see my Uncle and I feel calm, but then something happens, I don’t know what, and I’m terrified and yelling for my Aunt.  It’s been the exact same dream both times, and last night I woke myself up yelling for my Aunt :-(  I have no idea what these dreams mean or why I’m having them.  I mean, my first thought would be that I just miss him because this is my first set of holidays without him, but the scary parts make me wonder…who knows.  I just hope I don’t have them tonight!  Or ever again for that matter!

I’m second guessing surgery, which actually happens a lot lately.  I’m worried that it’s going to make it worse, or just not help at all.  I don’t know.  Part of me thinks it’s the best thing I can do for myself, and part of me thinks that it may just be something I have to learn to live with, and going under the knife won’t do anything for it…I’m open to opinions.

Alright, I think that’s it.  I need to get some work done now!

I written to you in a while, but I come talk to you at least once a week…you have no idea how much I miss you, and Thanksgiving doesn’t even feel like Thanksgiving without you…I wanted to crawl back in bed this morning when I woke up and realized it was our first Thanksgiving without you.  I know you weren’t yourself last year, but you were still here…I love you so much, more than you probably ever knew, and I’ve been crying so much lately that you’d probably smack me if you were here!  You never were one for sappiness…you probably shook your head at me when I took you your pumpkin!  Well, FYI, you’re getting a Christmas tree too!

I love you and I miss you, and the holidays just aren’t the same without you!

So my baby girl made the honor roll!!  I’m so happy and proud of her!

In other news, I’m going to MN for work the first week of Dec, so let me know if anyone wants to get together!!

The big move is Sat….YAY!!!!

I accidentally deleted all of my contacts, everywhere. I think I recovered them all, but if you could please send me your email addresses and phone numbers, just in case anyone got missed, I would greatly appreciate it!

Also, as you’ve all noticed, I don’t really use this blog anymore.  I’ve started blogging on Myspace again where I can control who’s reading without having to password everything everytime I want to write something.  So if you’re on Myspace, I can be found under my email address: thebrunette1980@yahoo.com

I won’t be deleting this though…I have too much on here…and who knows, I may start using it again some day…

So my surgery is officially scheduled…Nov 13th, the day before my birthday! I’ll be down for 6 freakin’ weeks! I may not make it ya’ll, ’cause staying home and in bed is NOT my strong suit! Thank God I’ll be on good drugs! We’re going to celebrate my birthday the weekend before, and Kristen is going to come hang out with me on my birthday. She’s also in charge of decorating my cast, ’cause she’s super creative and artistic My boss is going to try to set me up to work from home…we’ll see. We have a meeting with HR on Friday to talk about it. I’d really hate to be so out of the loop for so long with all of my added responsibilities…seriously! Not to mention, not only will I be in bed on my birthday, but Turkey Day, Tyler’s Birthday, Christmas and New Years!! Yuck. Seriously.

On the upside, my ankle will be all better…right? Sure.  Have I mentioned I’m fucking terrified?  Yeah.  I am.  I won’t be able to WALK!!!!!

So I’m going to try to move before my surgery…I put in an application for a duplex tonight. It’s really nice! 2 stories, 3bd 2 ba 1300 sq ft, and super close to their school. That matters a lot right now, because if I don’t live within walking distance of their school, I’m not going to be able to have them when I have my surgery since I won’t be able to walk or drive. So cross your fingers for us!

And of course, this affects the plan Kristi and I had to get a tattoo and more holes on the 10th. Not really though, we just rescheduled it to the 4th. Figured I should give myself a week of healing time before needles and scalpels

Well, I think that’s all my news for now…I’m off to read blogs like a good girl now!

I chopped my hair off! I think I love it

I also decided to play Betty Fucking Crocker. There’s another whole sheet the same size as this one and brownies. OCD much?? They REALLY yummy though!

Oh, and the tint is off of my front windows.  No pictures, because I just can’t like it yet!

That’s all for now. Small update